Dear Pneuma,

I took an online personality test the other day, and it informed me that my altruism is low. In other words, if it is you or me, I am much more likely to choose myself over my fellow humans. I find this disturbing. After all, my favorite heroes are the ones who sacrifice themselves for others. Does this mean that I am the person in the disaster movie that climbs over my fellow passengers in my eagerness to be first off the sinking boat? I always imagined I was the person who died of starvation in the Andes because of a refusal to desecrate another human's being.

Instead, here I am-selfishly average with a low sense of self-sacrifice. Boy, every time I think I have conquered a bit of my baser nature, I am confronted by another piece. Yet, in truth, I am my nature. I am not someone else's nature. I am made to be as I am. So my question for you, Pneuma, is what do I take from this? Is this a call to change, or is it instead an opportunity to wrestle in myself to a place of deeper understanding about the human being?

Of course, I could always decide that online personality tests are simply a fun game with little to no actual meaning.

Hope you are loving your life,

Cobalt Dreams